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April 19 Fruitless WaitI sit beside the ocean waiting But the black waves tumble and die I wonder if I could stall this ending The lazy clouds stray across my sky And I trust this vengeance for it is true Endless conversations have gone stolen I trust your word for it is my truth Ill take myself home when you're done One time, two time, three time, four The slashes ooze unbidden rage If I could rewrite our twisted lore The fallen angle wouldn't be disgraced So you can take back all the words you say I'll still remain your unnamed whore And if I live each day silently away Do I still not bring this death close? March 26 MismatchedWith slow age comes wisdom (As the ignorant kisses pride) With hate grows vengeance (As the lovers, in vain, die) Elegies, tombstones and hearses Life breeds contempt for death. Saints locked in jail for adultery Children treading the oceans lightly Secrets shouted over a confused din Mad men wait for death of religion "When will he come home?" she asks (He's battling for the millionaire's cause) Ugliness wrapped underneath, I hide Cringing at awkward reflections, I lie Give me fresh beginnings - untainted As I chant my prayers - unheeded Misery wont you fade just this one night? A defiled world needs to heal tonight Take me to places, fair and soft Chained to feigned ignorance I'm lost Don't hide your veins - black Cos these scars on my wrist match Tear drop sighs and watery smiles He lives for you, as you for him... March 20 Reflections on a Broken MirrorHer and I. For a while now,
I've thought of her as separate, a person very apart from me, a thing
- so it's easier for me to judge her, despise her for what she tried to
take away from me, even though it wasn't really mine then. In the beginning she was a treat to me. Every summer vacation, we met. We played in our make believe worlds and we fought over barbies and who got to sleep next to whom. We wrote letters to each other, not often, but enough to make sure we never completely vanished from the slate board that was our memory. I have little snippets of memories of snuggling so close to her in the night that we began to breathe as one. After all, we had the same blood running through us. And then we grew up. We began consciously making plans for the future. But we still didn't leave the sandbox much far behind. We still liked to play and fight. The sad thing is, this time around, winning became important. You think it becomes easier for us, as adults, to share. It doesn't. If I could do it all over again I would take away all the lies so that there is no bitterness and maybe just maybe you might come to me if you ever got lost. They say it takes two to make a lie work. One who says it and the other who believes it. March 18 Dubai Desert Rock Festival 2008I finally (FINALLY!!!) attended the Dubai Desert Rock Festival which had an amazing lineup this year. (Last years was better with Iron Maiden headlining and all.) This year we had Korn headlining Day 1 backed by awesome bands like Killswitch Engage, As I Lay Dying, Nervecell and ofcourse, Machine Head. Day 2 was headlined by Muse and the other bands performing were Juliana Down, Marky Ramone and none other than Velvet Revolver!!!! *smugness* Galeej Gurus from Bangalore opened the show on both the days of course, following their win at the Shamal Battle to DDRF. I was simply blown away by them. I have waited and waited and waited some more to catch them live. If you are in India and are a rock fan you have probably already heard about them. Amazing vocals, sexy bass, unconventional drumming and an awesome two guitar combo is one heady mixture altogether. Love them to pieces. I wasn't a big fan of Machine Head until I saw them perform live. Rob Flynn is THE MOST AMAZING frontman ever! He can have you up and headbanging for hours together. Those transparent Flying V's were an awesome sight. Machine Head had awesome energy and they were almost eerily technically precise. If you want to know what Flynn thinks of the Dubai crowd, go here. Killswitch Engage, the metalcore band, was pure adrenaline rush. I guess the limelight was stolen by Adam most of the time, with his weird costume and heavy guitaring. I guess every single person there returned home a Killswitch fan. They played all their best tracks ranging from My Curse to Arms of Sorrow. Nervecell were completely comfortable on stage, being on home turf. The boys from Dubai were the only death metal band playing this year and wow! they were good. The screams and growls were INSANE. They played tracks from their upcoming album, Preaching Venom which is due to release in April. The mosh pits during their session were vicious as always. I got tossed around a little until I learned to avoid the wretched thing. It's fun to watch though. =) Velvet Revolver.... They did what they had to do. Though they didn't offer anything new as such, the fans had waited all day just to see Slash shred that guitar the way he does. Scott Weiland entertained the crowd with his gimmicks. From the whole set, I loved Fall to Pieces the best. They did do a Guns n Roses cover but I didn't recognize the song =S The most surprising act however was Muse. They just caught me offguard. I've heard them a few times on radio but they never really caught my attention. But live, they were a different story. The three man band could make a kind of noise that was just out of this world. Their frontman was obviously very talented as he switched back and forth guitaring and that beautiful, white piano. His voice carried though powerfully and the crowd seemed to be hypnotized. Unfortunately, I don't have any pictures of theirs cos my camera decided to die on me once Slash left the stage. =( And they also refused to let journalists shoot pictures of them. *pouts* Well, the two days seemed to be cut out of some dream. Even though I went to the concert alone, I ended up making some good friends. So cheers to that! And like someone once said "Live music kicks ass!" :) It sure does. Can't wait for next year. I hope they manage to get hold of Metallica.... Wouldn't that be sweet?? =) P.S. All photos taken by moi with my li'l Cybershot T20. :) ......... i know.... ;) March 03 without u...without u... im just your dream tht u forget once your awake without u... im a painting formed only in your thoughts the pitter patter of rain wake me to ur laughter and i see once again why i fell in love with you its only a matter of time and we'll be together until then... let me be your dream while you sleep among clouds..... February 29 ReadTwirling on yellow lit lanes Skipping across crowded streets Your hand held mine tight Shadows of our former selves We were born every starlit night With every passing minute I'm losing bits of who you are With every passing minute I'm finding out that I actually care Late night movies on dirty beds Birthdays wishes a tad too late Your voice rocked me to sleep Defining our sweet little moments Songs written by the insane but deep With ever passing minute I'm farther away from the day u kissed me With every passing minute I'm becoming someone I don't wanna be.... I know you're coming for me If I said I know you Would you say its make believe I know you've been waiting And If I ask you to stop Just tell me to shut up. February 25 On TrialTaste these tears, running down in lines Make me remember, words only you know I wish I could change this, not try I'm only an image, that you've with pain sold An ache so dull, I can barely recognize The hurt only a disguise for the wound Cos I'd rather suffer than be compromised Just let me know if you want this truth Within these pages lie rusted fables Of things behind closed chambers Private abuse of a different nature They lie because of wasted shame And now I need to give us an ending Try as I might to lend you a thought I come up for some air, gasping Chain reaction to a habit, bought. In ChargeWatch me as I play my roles Watch me as I shun the light A new dawn with no purpose Watch me as I lay down my fight Sing to me songs of a stolen future Sing to me ballads of a broken past Hiding in a room without a door Sing to me new songs that might last Talk to me sweet nothings so I may love Talk to me dirty so I get turned on Wondering where you'll take me next Talk to me before the moon goes down Love me cos you're addicted Hate me cos you know nothing else I am your reason to life and death Love me cos I'm taking you to hell. P.S. How's that Dopey?? :P January 26 A Little Pink DiaryA book of lies with pages adorned A silver dolphin wrapped in satin red Metal meets pretense in your world Tarnished words with honey layered You cower from me in your wake Fight behind my back with lithe How do you expect me to live In a world filled with your filth Sweet nothings whispered by him Incomplete songs More for you than me Call it jealousy Or a deficit In my personality You'll forever haunt what I have Or what I could have had If you could come back For a day (or two) I would show you How we do it On this side of the screen And so forever have I wondered What it would be like If I could let go......... I guess we'll never know. January 25 Happy Birthday LoveFickle are my thoughts Like old wine It hits me when I least expect it You've seen these thoughts Like a roll of film They play in Technicolor and on wide screen (For you) They say it might snow tonight And it brought to mind Your love for everything cold Ice creams and cold pines I might not be making sense to many But tonight only you matter This belongs to you And I'm writing So you can have the satisfaction Of throwing it into a bin :D You're this bottle without a cork I can see you spilling over the edges A door without a lock I wish I wasn't scared to open And take a look What would I find though?Would I be surprised? You've always been too exotic With your drawling voice and green skull pick You should know I'm patient enough though To unravel you, I could wait nine lifetimes So tonight can pass in this moody silence And I'll end now with a light kiss on your brow. Happy Twenty Third baby! January 22 PrayerIt's sundown The wind's whistling Like God blowing On an old wooden flute Run home now The shadows are growing Like ghosts rising With the waxing moon Halfway to prison It's looming on you If you ran away (run!) Would He forsake you? Empty words They echo louder Like the hammer clanging On a crystal sword Shattered pieces Harder to collect, harder Like the tears melting On abandoned faces. God! Halfway to the end It's looming near If she quits this road Would He guide her? Virgin stars Never been gazed upon Keep watching And millions are born Don't stop now The shyness is gone Keep hoping Always a new dawn Halfway to my destiny It's looming closer If I forget this memory Would He remember? January 20 Ha!Moody face Much disgrace Nothing in place Wanna forget Changing Lanes Surrender pain Search these eyes For regret Fuck for a muse Morals loose Don't like to be used Same luck Made insane Magic ingrained Music in flames You would love me... Yeaaahhh! PrincessWould it be wrong If I fell in love with a song I didn't think I would come across you Now you're here... for how long? A restlessness within the silence I come to you to forget A world I'm leaving behind As I watch the sun set You are not next to me And yet its only you who see - A princess within the rags A method to my madness And I'm not sure I want to know Where all this might take us I'll settle for the here and now The images are absent somehow Now that I've fallen in love with your song Don't get me wrong I've come to know us and all that is I don't need any promises... December 28 And We Are The ForgottenMetal, grunge, psychedelic blues Noises vibrate, the words register and fade Choose pain with lust, don't disturb the dust The numbness creeps in when new promises are made Bathe in flashing and dimming lights Writhing bodies, a guileless sight Music dictates and the mind obeys Lay back and let them spin their tales A sordid tale might be written About our places and dreams, unadorned Confusing what happened and what might have happened Trying to fill empty creases with denial (don't repent) Forgotten is how they'll paint our death With an eye of indifference and a brush of meth And so they'll come to remember us and blame Upon a canvas faded, within a rusted frame. December 22 In BetweenPearls strewn over white marble Green pearls, already losing color The radio singing random tunes Lost poetry written in old runes A bleeding heart with a caged mind Staring at the green infused white Searching for a long lost thread Some excuse to avoid the sleepless bed Alcohol turns to sparkling water The claustrophobic white closing in faster Roll over and play dead Open eyes to get fucked instead Tears wasted by lesser mortals Death dishonored by suicidal losers Shadows cast by vagabond time Pass over gently in tumbling gyres Stuck between simian ancestors And artificially engineered heirs Do we really want to stay here Or walk past time to a new year? December 13 When We MetI saw a face from afar, a familiar stranger, grim Little did I know, I'd never sleep again cos of him A gust of wind blew away ashes of doubt As our eyes met, I knew he knew, he knew And Satan laughed as God spewed prayers from his mouth For only they knew our fates, just sketched anew You stand tall and proud, My Prince Charming The cursed four letter words fast arriving I'd have turned and fled, if it weren't for those eyes I'd have run and hid, if it wasn't for that smile Your eyes, bottomless and full Do I look away or stay? Your smile, sunny and shining Does it ever rain on your building? Would it matter if it's all need and no want? Would it hurt if this never gets a name? You should know I'd rather stay and die Than leave and live guilt's endless game. I swear this to you (Cross my heart and hope to die) If I knew then what I know now, I wouldn't change it at all If I had then what I have now, I would have given you all. December 06 RecogniseWounded, now rested Only in your world I exist Prised away from the cold Now I melt into damp mist Enchanted by a new fairytale You weave my reality Dismiss fears old and stale To embrace darkness in its totality You trace these marks A lone finger, soft and trembling Regret etched on a skin marred The pain's slowly receding You fill this hollow space No room for appearances Pull the mask from my face And float in recognition's kisses. November 27 And we turn ONE year old.... yay!!!okie... a couple of people have been visiting this blog and have been
faithfully waiting to find out what's so special about today... well...
exactly one year back on this day, Shimmer fell in love.... well,
around this day I suppose... :P It wasn't for the first time, but I'm
sure this is the last time, the ONE... Its been one helluva year... Its
been a beautiful and at the same time traumatic time... A roller
coaster ride that i definitely don't wanna get down from.... So this
poem goes out for you, Goofy.... love you babe... Breathing Love Dewdrop eyes and a lopsided smile Tousled hair and a mysterious pride Only for you, I'll be perfect For you, I'll even be second best Engulfed by a warmth, surreal I'll forever want to be your angel Struck by Cupid's wicked arrow I'll always want to lie on your pillow :D Now the past is knocking on our door And I wish you wouldn't open it I'll fill you with love and much more But you've gone ahead and opened it Now turn me to stone if you will Break me to pieces if you will I'll serenade you with my wordless songs Melt away bitterness' spiny thorns Bruise me, I'll take what I get Curse me, I know you don't forget I promise I wont walk away Will always have the right words to say Please don't walk away Listen to what I have to say Somehow breathing seems easier around you Just hold me and let me disappear, remember Drowning in desires bottomless pool I'll let myself crash and burn a million times over In your shadow I'll find myself With your words, I'll find myself In your eyes I can till eternity live With your presence, I'll forever live And if you ever end up Locking yourself out in the rain Just whisper the password And I'll let you in again. November 26 WaitingI've been waiting for you My world a tad more blue Your face more than a memory Longings whispered to a pink diary I've been holding invisible hands My mind running over suicide plans Your voice echoing over and over Pain almost replaced you as my lover I've been making sad sonnets My faith helped me not to forget Your eyes pierce through the rain Suffocation flushed down the drain I've been watching your reluctant smile My album of memories stretch over a mile Your promises in a hidden safe I keep Expectations creating hopeful dreams I haven't been writing because I want to My pen has fought battles valiant and true Your love, forever my muse, my need Writing because the words don't let me sleep November 25 Reaper's Favourite BrideA beauty created In a moment of perfection She stood tall and ethereal Like a figment of untold imagination Thoughts locked in tight For them to forever chase The vanity of blissful youth Sparkled through in a blaze Just the right amount of grace To cover up the lie in her gaze Her fickle fidelity lay unassuming As false as a falsetto As true as her diamond ring But she was no petty whore Elliptical eyes, black and unholy Talked of sin, ever so shyly Lips warm, made to be kissed Her tongue poisonous, almost hissed Her sweet breath was intoxicating Voice of Isis, mesmerizing She knew her charm and spell Was a gift straight from hell As boys and men at her feet fell She walked over them like empty shells And as their breath was taken away They would all before falling say If looks could kill, she might - Be the Reaper's most favorite bride. |
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